I payed too much for the shipping of a skirt i bought on ebay, so she decided to send me a dress for free :) didn’t expect that at all! Nice to know that there are still some amazing people out there :) this made me smile on a bad day…
“Doing just fine, I’m doing just fine
Just give me some time, I need to close my eyes
I’m doing just fine, and I’ll be all right
Don’t worry I’m fine, as I leave the world behind
Don’t touch me I’m shaking, can you hear me breaking
Yet somehow I’m still standing, oh
Well maybe I’m crazy, but this is really hard for me
Can I get some sympathy”—Karmina - Sympathy
I’m scared of being no one
For the rest of my life
I’m scared of saying nothing worth something
If I let you inside
I’m scared of the future
Because I have no control
So I don’t ask the questions
‘Cuz I don’t want the answers
Yeah some things I don’t need to know
'Cuz I feel like
A full house of cards
With holes in the basement
I feel like
A full house of cards
With the world on my shoulder
With one word you blow my house down
Blow my house down
My stomach is still not okay, but I’ll have to wait for my gastroscopy appointment in 3 weeks, buuut the complete blood count was okay except for having my hypofuncion of the thyroid back again after 3 years, but I’m completely okay with taking some medicine everyday :)
I got some emergency pills if my stomach hurts too bad again. Soo, that means I can get back to work on monday :) finally!! I mean, staying at home was okay for the first week, but them it got super boring, and I felt like I’m missing out on everything.
I hope I can catch up on everything at my vocational school, I’ve missed a word processing exam and an english exam that I have to retake and have a presentation on thursday already. Buuut I’m sure I’ll be fine with that :) I’ll try my best! happy I’ll get out of my bed again!!
Graduated High School. Kissed someone. Smoked cigarettes. Got so drunk you passed out. Rode every ride at an amusement park. Collected something really stupid. Gone to a rock concert. Helped someone. Gone fishing. Watched four movies in one night. Gone long periods of time with out sleep. Lied to someone. Snorted cocaine. Failed a class. Smoked weed. Dealt drugs. Taken a college level course. Been in a car accident. Been in a tornado. Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid). Watched someone die. Been to a funeral. Burned yourself. Ran a marathon. Your parents got divorced. Cried yourself to sleep. Spent over $200 in one day. Flown on a plane. Cheated on someone. Been cheated on. Written a 10 page letter. Gone skiing. Been sailing. Cut yourself. Had a best friend. Lost someone you loved. Shoplifted something. Been to jail. Dangerously close to being in jail. Had detention. Skipped school. Got in trouble for something you didn’t do. Stolen books from the library. Gone to a different country. Dropped out of school. Been in a mental hospital. Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. Had an online diary. Fired a gun. Gambled in a casino. Had a yard sale. Had a lemonade stand. Actually made money at the lemonade stand. Been in a school play. Been fired from a job. Taken a lie detector test. Swam with dolphins. Gone to sea world. Voted for someone on a reality TV show. Written poetry. Read more than 20 books a year. Gone to Europe. Loved someone you couldn’t have. Wondered about your sexuality. Used a coloring book over age 12. Had surgery. Had stitches. Taken a taxi. Seen the Washington Monument. Overdosed Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once. Had a drug or alcohol problem. Been in a fist fight. Suffered any form of abuse. Had a hamster. Petted a wild animal. Used a credit card. Gone surfing in California. Did “spirit day” at school. Dyed your hair. Got a tattoo. Had something pierced. Got straight A’s. Been on the Honor Roll. Known someone with HIV or AIDS. Taken pictures with a webcam. Started a fire. Gotten caught having a party while parents were gone away
my grandma called me a few days ago, to ask me how I was and then went off to telling me that my uncle rainer, her younger brother, liked me really much when we met a few years ago. It turned out, that my mum told my grandma, that I’ve always wanted to visit him in canada, where he lives for most of his life now, and everyone always thought he’d be kinda annoyed or stressed by having someone at home. Well, so my mum told my grandma, that I’ve always wanted to visit him one day, and my mum mentioned that to him, the next time they talked.
And he was soo excited about it, that he started planning in which room I should sleep, and that I could bring a friend and what he wanted me to show. Oh, he lives in Toronto, by the way :D. And he could drive us to america for a few days, if I wanted to (probably Buffalo). If I want to?! Hell, yes :D.
So, he’s like so excited, that he wants me to come already this summer. But I guess that won’t happen, unfortuntely I don’t have that much holiday days left at work :D buuut we’re all planning about next year now :). I’ll start saving money to go shopping like every day :D my mum and my grandma and some other relatives are going to give me some money for the flight, so that I don’t have to pay everything on my own.
And nooow, I’M excited :D:D.
it seems so possible and “close” now :) which is really awesome, ‘cause I really always wanted to visit him, since he’s sooo nice, I just don’t know him really good, but I guess we’d get along pretty good :).
It’s not like everything planned out, but we’re thinking about it, and that really makes me happy :)